Friday, 1 January 2016

1st January 2016


The mundane ambience of the past couple of weeks had rendered a poignant ache to reside within the core of my anatomy. My sore eyes woke at 12:00pm after finally entering sedation at 3am the previous night; a static routine as of late. I wrapped myself in copious layers and kissed the rim of mugs, fulfilling my craving for warmth as papery flecks of skin peeled from my lips. I pushed through wintry evenings – the insufferable gloom overhanging as a relentless downpour slapped the ground below in violent gestures.

The repetitive nature of the holidays had built a despondent mask upon the calm composure that once existed. The unwavering determination that I held before dispersed as unread literature piled up and unfinished essays stared back at me, pleading for some form of energy to find its way back into my limbs. My apathy was potent and frequently seeped through the indents of my weary bones. Every possible sense of clarity became distant.

2015 is gently decaying: A disposition of fluctuating emotion.

And so I sit and wait for the starless canvas of the night sky to crack, to release itself from the shackles of anguish, allowing the tender rays of light to make their grand appearance and fill me with purpose once again.

I’d be lying if I said I were ready for the New Year that looms ahead. I’m not even slightly prepared. And perhaps the ache will cease to ever subside, and a great fraction of the next 365 days will be spent in reclusive cynicism. Or maybe it won’t, and 2016 will be a year of soul-relieving progression.

But I’m going to disregard these polarising outcomes, because there’s an abundance of meanders that this year could potentially pursue, and I strongly believe that there is comfort in ephemeral chaos. So for me, to have the power to embrace it, would be more than enough.  

{Photo source: Nabsticle}

4 comments:

  1. Your writing is beautiful!

    Jane
    queenofquirk.com

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    1. Thank you Jane!! And thanks for the follow too, it made my day!

      Nabeela :)

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  2. Oh my, you've gained one loyal follower here, that was simply beautiful!
    Carmen

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    1. Thank you so much Carmen, you're so kind!

      Nabeela :)

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