This post is going to be a bit of a chatty one where I just catch you up on all of my current perceptions towards life and the thoughts that seem to involuntarily occur at 2am regarding the future and its promises. We’re at that time of year where life is getting ahead of us with piles of essays to write, a crushing wave of fatigue taking over and a prolonged existential crisis so I wanted to just take a step back from this constant cycle of chaos and update you all on my life and its interminable changes.
I’m not going to lie to you, January was the most miserable and mundane month I’ve had for a really long time and I never want to feel like that again, I’m simply not going to allow it. However a remarkable change in attitude surfaced when February came knocking at my door so I jumped at the opportunity to grab happiness and place it in my own hands. I’ve made small changes to my atrocious diet by making a conscious effort to drink more water, eat more fruit and to do around 40 minutes of exercise a day. I was sick of feeling weak and my God is my body thanking me for it. I feel stronger, my skin’s glowing and my confidence has come rushing back into my veins which is something I hadn’t felt in a long time. Although these lifestyle changes are to a small degree I feel that tiny seed of hope growing strong and ready to bloom its way straight to the top.
With a copious amount of tasks to complete, endless mind-numbing coursework and maintaining a blog, you can understand the exhausting stress my mind has been battling with. I’ve been writing down every single task, no matter how big or small, along with future plans and goals I want to achieve by the end of 2015. And although it’s ever-growing, it has immensely helped to clear my mind. I’ve also been writing down my achievements as a reminder that I’m doing okay and I can’t even begin to express how uplifting this exercise has been and I encourage you all to do the same. I really want to share some of my goals and achievements with you all and be sure to let me know some of yours down in the comments too.
1. Go out and socialise with my old friends from high school at least once in February
2. Achieve ABB in my A levels
3. Have a job by the end of the year
1. I haven’t missed a day of college since the new term started
2. Towards the end of January I went back to my high school to collect my GCSE certificates and I was really nervous about seeing everyone again but I got over the fear and ended up having a really lovely time
As of right now I’m taking each day as it comes but I refuse to allow 2015 to just be another mediocre year.
The last thing I wanted to talk (or rather do a melodramatic celebratory dance) about is the one year anniversary of my blog! On the 16th February 2014 I started this little blog as a hobby because being a very opinionated person with a mind full of creativity just wasn’t cutting it in the real world. Having this online presence has been a beautiful whirlwind and the support I’ve received from this community means everything to me, you’re all immensely inspiring, passionate, hard-working and so damn kind. Thank you.
I wanted to give a few mentions to some of the wonderful friends I’ve made and the people who have made my first year of blogging so special.
Lauren is someone who I feel I could talk to for hours on end and never get bored. Her strong passion for books, Pretty Little Liars and writing all tied together with her lovely personality always puts a smile on my face. Not too long ago she made the decision to convert to a cruelty free lifestyle and damn I am so proud of her. People like Lauren are the kind of positive people I’d like to surround myself with as her kind words keep me motivated and boost my confidence immensely.
I can talk to Sylwia about anything. From broken friendships, depression, teenage woes and the latest verdict on who killed Lucy on EastEnders. After conversing through emails and getting to know Sylwia I’ve discovered a selfless, genuine and honest friend; something that’s very difficult to find nowadays. I’m so grateful for all of the help she has given me, especially when I was at a really low point in my life and she was there to offer thoughtful advice, I’m never going to forget that. Her strength is admirable and my respect for her is ever-growing. She has really made my first year of blogging one to remember.
Lauryn has something so rare that is almost impossible to find amongst the millions of bloggers out there. Forget her sophisticated writing style and dismiss her strong-minded approach to deep philosophical ideas because none of that matters when she possesses a heart of gold and an inextinguishable passion to succeed. She is a beacon of inspiration and her kindness has touched my heart countless times. We need more people like her in the world.
I’m so proud of myself for committing to Nabsticle. Here’s to another year of growth, building friendships and contributing to this insanely over-crowded virtual world of opinions.